Black Dahlia
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disappearance
MARY & its a little late for convertions says (3:04 PM):
huh
dont thiink so much
maybe you should
disappear ?
sounds good.
Emptiness
This morning I woke up with an empty heart; its as if my life has lost all its purpose and I’m left to submerge myself in desperation, forlornness and neglect ion. I reckon my insecurities have finally taken its toll on me, so much so that I allow myself to be prostrated by such intensive emotions.I seriously abhor dealing with all these unknown issues that I’m troubling myself with. However, here’s the irony; I choose to place myself in such isolation. I know this sounds absolutely ridiculous, but it seems like my issues with trust has started to snowball on its on accord. Crap. I’m actually tearing while inditing this.
In short, I’ve totally lost my mental and moral vigor.
Zilei asked me yesterday on my objectives on love and my reply to her was, “Love is pathetic. It makes you do unconditional things which will end up corrupting your emotional and physical self.” I just can’t bring myself to be optimistic about anything because with love, it brings responsibilities, thus leading to unnecessary pangs of agony and self-destruction. Yet, it seems like I’m slowly placing myself in such vulnerability. If I have the ability to scream out-loud on this wordpress, I’d do it now. I seriously have no idea what shit am I getting myself into. I really don’t. Such perplexities are such a pain.
